petit's conundrum

This is a continuation to my friend' company Dylated. We had another event maybe 2 weeks ago.  Less ppl, but just as fun! Call it an expensive house party, btu it's damned fun!  low in the dark :D  We basically had a dark room full of black lights & glow in the dark themed t-shirts (but of course you really cant see w/ the flash of the camera)  :P

enjoy!

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Dont you just hate it when you WAAAAAAY too early for your flight??  Okay, so usually i'm doing a bolder dash rush to the airport.. but THIS time I got her to Burbank airport 1 full hour in advance for my 9pm flight. (Yeay!)  But when I casually took a peak of my boarding pass, I realized my flight has been delayed to 10:50!..  no wiat, 11:20!!!  :(  terrible!  I'm not going to get into NYC until 7am now.. :/  Ah well, I'll feel less weird going into work at an early hour (last time I got in at 6:30 am)..  Now, I should get to work around 8 - 8:15 perhaps? whatevs... better than my usually late 9:30 - 10am stroll in..  :P

Hmm...

I need to get my actual priorities in check (not work related)..

1. talk to Johnny about getting my flash site up...finally.
2. finish templates for splash page (okay, so the sites not up partially b/c of me)  :P
3. purchase dress for (finally!) eh, kinda depends on  when i get my tax return
4. go half on serger machine w/ friend
5. buy samples on Driggs
6. buy 100% cotton yarn (not that cheap k-mart nylon/acetate crap..)
7. pick up Swaravski(sp?) stones
8. create. create. create.

uhm.. i think thats good for now.

Sooooo, apparently Mogwai has been put into the category of "Post-Rock" whatever the hell that means..  I dunno.  I just think its hott.  Anyhoo, I'm gonna leave you w/ my buddy Biz's vid (is it Post Rap?):

Bizzart - Liquid Beast

[written earlier on a 4:40pm flight to Los Angeles from NYC]

Off to LA again...everytime i get on the plane, i promise its my last time. *hmpf* [yes, i actually wrote *hmpf*]Now i'm not a gambling gal, so maybe thats what makes me so nervous about flying. Today's flight was a comfortable one to get on, but sometimes i wonder if being too comfortable in such a gamble would be mocking God. Maybe it feels a bit like my haunches have gotten so big w/ experience, but i know better. You can cheat death only so much. But i have to thank God for keeping me safe during all these trips. Even this one that has gotten extra bumpy over the plains of the midwest & my intestines screaming for mercy from a lactose-intollerent belly drinking a latte the size of her head! Lord Jesus please keep us safe! I can only chant it so much in my head to make the chills & sweats go away at 50 odd thousand feet in the air.

I will NEVER get used to this...as much as I truely try, it just wont happen! I cant be like everyone else. I'm not calm under this pressure. My body may read relaxed, but dont look into my eyes. They scream terror! Please dont look into them!  I'm trying to let Mogwai keep me calm. Who is Mogwai? i dunno. Picked up the album from a friend, i think. Randomly found it on my itunes when it zapped my library & i had to reload all my music once again. [Hmm. I guess everything DOES happen for a reason!] I vow to look them up when i land [I swear i will after i finish this blog!].

Mogwai's song "Ratts of the Capitol" from their Happy Songs for Happy People (that's gotta be a sarcastic title) is my favorite as of late. Truth is i only like about 4 songs form that album [& this is why i thank the good Lord for Limewire]. But in this case, the whole album was free.. Track "I know you are, But what am i" kinda feels it was inspired a bit by Trent Reznor's completely accoustic piano album [as a true NIN fan, i should know what that album title is..]  I really like it though.. There's just something about the piano that just explains your life to you. Right there in front of you...w/o you asking..  Somethign about it, a plucked string that doesnt at all sound like a stringed instrument. Just played out your life for you as a reel, if you will [bad rhyme].  Especially a repetitive, echoy one later accompanied by electronic goodness. True it doesnt need it at all, but it gives it a slightly different feel, you know? even if just for a second..

"Haunted by a Freak" totally sounds like something i've heard from a movie or something. But i just cant remember.  Bizzare how you'll hear something & not know what it is, then it comes back into your life & has a memory you totally didnt know you had.  But i like music moments like that. Especially when its a GREAT song..  & Especially when its "Haunted by a Freak" & has mega awesome melodies & breakdowns & yeah...!  I think its my second fav on the album.  Just chilled & very psychadelic trippy-like. Totally lose yourself music!  :D  I heart the cello's in "Moses I'm Arnt" (I think thats 'Moses I'm Are Not'? Kinda like 'All Your Base Are Belong To Us'?)

BLAH! I'm so stumped on what to do on my next project.  :(  It just seems so difficult to come up w/ great ideas when i'm athome. But up here, for some reason, brilliant things come to mind..  Though my brain..  *eeps!* More turbulence. Lord will help us through it! (God i hate turbulence...)

On an off note, what's the deal w/ black pants gathering every piece of lint & dust known to man?!?!? It's like a magnet, i tell you! Hmm, I guess black articles of clothing are just dependable in that way.

So I almost ate pavement...er, subway floor this past saturday. Went to the emergency room at Bellevue in LES b/c i couldnt feel my skin. I seriously lost all my feeling.. I couldnt event feel myself blink! For quite some time i couldnt feel that i was hungry or that i had to use the bathroom. It was very VERY uncool.. & Then i thought i was going to black out on the subway.. it was terrible. but i had to keep myself from passing out b/c 1) i didnt want my face on the filthy subway floor.. & 2) i didnt want to some random stranger dragging me any random place.. you know?  anyhow, i made it to the hospital & rested & was released about 5am sunday morning.. alone.   That experience def sucked major monkey balls..  :(    Co-worker says it was dues to stress.. docs says it was probably hormonal imbalance, but thats seem very unlikly due to going completely numb all over my whole body.  :/  But at least i started feeling less dizzy before they decided to release me & i got my feeling back around 4am..  Docs couldnt find anything physically wrong w/ me, so at least the gave me a bed to rest in free of charge. True there was a lady suffering for Dimentia to my left, an ex junkie recieveing all kinds of shots to my right...& a guy w/ a mangled leg across the room, but that doesnt mean that my issue is less significant than theirs.. ah well...what can you do?  Don think i'll tell my Mother though...it'll only make her upset & feel helpless. & i def dont want that for anybody!

My friend that i asked to accompany me at the hospital was insensitive & a total douche bag. he actually told me that he was going to have drinks w/ friends & to call him when i was ready to leave. Hm..lets not call him a friend from now on. Lets just call him a douche. i mean i was downright afraid & had no control of what was happening w/ my body & i needed someone there in that instant... if not just being there as a friend, but being there for emotional support as well!  he blamed his behavior on a past experience w/ some quadropalegic (sp?) ex girl....what the fuck ever dude.  earlier that day he was all jazzed ot have my company when we were having fun...but the moment i need a helping hand he goes AWOL. fucking pussy bastard..  Shit.  MAN UP BITCH! & try to keep a minimum wage paying job that consists of something other than washing dishes or "prepping" food for the chefs! FUCKING BASTARD!

Gosh! when the distortion guitar comes in on "Ratts" it really gets into the meat of things! Then the soloing & drums just gets me SO PUMPED!  :D  Me hearts it lots! 

Oi, now i'm sleepy.... & the turbulence has started again..  :(  Eh, gotta pee!

[END TRANSMISSION]

Yeay a blog!  Eh...i'm not very good at this amymore, sadly..  I miss the days when i'd drone over issues & references & photos & explain what this or that meant to me..  I started a Vox hoping to bring that back, but i think my job just has me so busy that i cant feel right anymore..  it's numbed my brain, & when i finally get to that point where i can get something out it's already 3am & i'm worried that i wont have enough sleep for the next day..

*le sigh*

But i've found something frmo my Blogger.com site that I recently tried to rehash, but i realize the only reason why i could spend so much time thinking & prodding & expressing is b/c i was in that mode where you truely have time to explore yourself..  Like in school, i NEVER brought homework home, or was one of those kids that studied diligently.. hell, my books hardly left the locker! But i feel like High School was the perfect time for all of this...b/c classes were a backdrop for majoring in sleeping, & i actually got home before it was dark! unlike the 9-5 winter months  :(  Anyhoo, so I guess I wouldnt mind sharing w/ everyone what was secret for so long.. What was a silent Medium for at least a year or so & nearly forgotten:

To Suffocate Euphoria

I'll leave you w/ the desperation of CocoRosie & how it matches the mood of today:

 

 

 

 

 

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i dunno what the heck it is about psychadelic rock music...but for some reason it totally just speaks to my soul.   I was watchign an episode of Boondocks where I totally forgot abouthis awesome song that was samples in a Pete Rock & CL Smooth song.. enjoy!

In this Boondocks episode "Riley Wuz Here" (Part 3), there is a scene where the Bob Ross character & Riley are trying to out run the cops after painting a mural on Riley's grandfather's house:

 

 

This is the original song that was played in the Boondocks episode. I previously thought it was Jefferson Airplane, but now i know for a fact that it's Tom Scott's "Today":

 

A sample from the the aformentioned song is admirably used in this classic hip hop song from Pete Rock & CL Smooth's "They Reminisce Over You"... touches me to the core! *sniffs!*:

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The holidays went rather well for me this year..  Unlike years previous, me & my fam actually got along & talked w/ each other..  though there were a couple of tiffs her & there, mostly it was me defending unfair arguments w/ others...but you know those Libra's are.. always gotta keep the peace, ya know? & I find that to be painfully true! no matter how much i try to be selfish & do for myself...i always end up giving that up for another...but hey...if you're happy, i'm happy..

I included pics from New Years Eve & the day after only because I bought my cam in the day of NYE.. i wish i would have been able to get it before traveling to my parents place in Indiana for Christmas, but what can you do? I jus have to keep the memories.. I have to start getting used to taking pics tho..  i dunno, i just feel so weird, like an annoying tourist constantly having ppl stop what they're doing to take pics.  & then i just feel like a creepy perv taking candid pics on the DL.. i dunno.. i knwo i def like candid better than posey ones, but what can ya do?  i'll save the candid for when i get a 35mm... then i can at least feel legit!  :P

Anyhoo, sorry i've been MIA... had to go through some tough times, but the holidays totally push through for me.. def put me at peace in some areas. its interesting though... i've always wanted to document everything i've gone through. i just feel that the images in my head, in the moment, need to be shared w/ others.. hmm.. i guess thats what reality television does to you..  :/

Well, we'll let this Insomniac go to sleep & hope i'm not too dead in a few hours to get to work on time (i've been a real slacker lately w/ my time & i think ppl are starting to notice)  :(

G'night & pls enjoy the pics!

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Sukkas!  :P

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Yeah..

I know i'm so over partying like a rockstar & all, but I needed a last "HURRAH!", i suppose..

::cough cough::

:P

 

 enjoy!

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